Everybody seems so excited about FYP.. "Eh2, wanna group together???" "Eh2, how bout if we do this"..

All these talks got me tinking.. I'm so fucked up.. I've changed class coz I failed 1 of my modules.. Have to repeat.. New class but 0 frens from new class... Got arh 3 but they got their own clique... Old class obviously know me well by now.. Some of them are lyke "Haha.. Fucker.. Kena stay back.. Fucked up sia u"...

K larh I don't mind u joke about it arh once in awhile but if u keep doing it over n over everyday, u're hurting one's morale man.. I already got my family probs.. N then got my financial probs.. N now my sch probs.. Y the fuck must the group be max 3... if it's 4, it would be damn good.. I could juz join my old clique.. but now itz 3... my old clique is 3 person plus me 4.. n summore i'm in diff class.. i'm the outcast then... as alwaes... wtf..

"wah~ u're damn fucked up sia... fyp u gonna do wif hu sia?? max 3... we juz nice already.." same point everyday but phrased differently every hour... k myb not every hour but everytyme the topic FYP pops out, tats it... I'm the target...

"I tink u can quit sch now.. save ur tyme n serve ur NS.. lagi better.. can also work part tyme bef going NS.. summore u go earlier than us" a new sentence I heard today.. haiz...

i've reli screwd up everyting... itz all my fault.. i've lost the positive side of me tat i had gained a few weeks back... eddy is just a one fucked up guy who will get fucked by lyfe... n he can't do 1 bit to change tat coz he has way past the turning point...

fucked up..